Update On My Life
07/19/07 20:44 Categories: Life
So here is just a small summer update and just a
general note on life. I’m still working at CVS and
iPlace and will continue doing so. I am not ready to
go back to school financially so pray for me. I’m not
in a rush…so whatever the Lord has for me this fall
is fine with me.
This summer has been such a long summer. I’ve only been here in G-vegas doing the same old thing every week but still it feels like I have done so much. Where do I start? Well for one my dad, step-mom and step-brother (Harmen) came and visit me from holland. My sister also came seperately with one of her kids (Bryony) from Holland to visit us. I haven’t been in Holland for 4 years now and so I got homesick big time when I had to say goodbye to my family when they had to return back to Holland. It was hard but then I remembered all the good friends from school and church I have here.
Anyway now here comes the hard part. I have a lot of mixed feelings between being homesick, finishing school, friends and the future. It seems at times I understand where I am coming from and where I am going to….but then something comes along the way and trips me up!?! I just don’t get it at times.I felt like everything was going my way and then BOOM it’s gone. I sometimes question why I came here to the States just to see my life being screwed up! But then again going back to my past isn’t the solution either, it feels like I’m stuck between a rock and hard place. But why would I question God? He brought me here for a reason and then I think about all the good things He brought in my life while being here :).
So I leave my current circumstances in God’s hands but what about the future? I got pretty much nothing planned which really scares me. I have these “what if” questions in my head. But then again why should I worry about things that hasn’t even happened yet? I guess letting go of the past, present and future and let God is the only conclusion I can come to when looking at my life =).
This summer has been such a long summer. I’ve only been here in G-vegas doing the same old thing every week but still it feels like I have done so much. Where do I start? Well for one my dad, step-mom and step-brother (Harmen) came and visit me from holland. My sister also came seperately with one of her kids (Bryony) from Holland to visit us. I haven’t been in Holland for 4 years now and so I got homesick big time when I had to say goodbye to my family when they had to return back to Holland. It was hard but then I remembered all the good friends from school and church I have here.
Anyway now here comes the hard part. I have a lot of mixed feelings between being homesick, finishing school, friends and the future. It seems at times I understand where I am coming from and where I am going to….but then something comes along the way and trips me up!?! I just don’t get it at times.I felt like everything was going my way and then BOOM it’s gone. I sometimes question why I came here to the States just to see my life being screwed up! But then again going back to my past isn’t the solution either, it feels like I’m stuck between a rock and hard place. But why would I question God? He brought me here for a reason and then I think about all the good things He brought in my life while being here :).
So I leave my current circumstances in God’s hands but what about the future? I got pretty much nothing planned which really scares me. I have these “what if” questions in my head. But then again why should I worry about things that hasn’t even happened yet? I guess letting go of the past, present and future and let God is the only conclusion I can come to when looking at my life =).
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